Thursday, January 19, 2006

Fantastic Voyage

It was the summer and I was leaving New Orleans and moving back to my hometown as a grown ass woman. I was on a soul searching journey, characterized by all stand-by flights, lost ATM cards followed by a lost ID and one confirmed flight home. You don't know how hard it is to catch a stand-by flight to LA in the middle of the summer! But it was all worth it. So en route I decided to see the world. (which translates to just Atlanta and Los Angeles) This trip had further significance for every flight I had taken twelve months prior related to romantic matters. That all um, ended quite disappointingly... and comically.

It was great to do something for me, to spend time with my friends, reciting corny phrases from movies (like my favorite, 'Just mackin'... and hangin', mackin' and hangin'... from the movie "The Wood" Don't tell me I'm the only one who loved that.)

It was my first night in ATL at a lounge spot with my friends. It was the hot spot on Thursdays and had no cover. I was carefree and needless to say tip-say! Surely I was minding my business avoiding the thought of men when to be silly, I turned around facing a guy of short stature and started dancing with him.

I have never met a man more amazing.

He attended college in my hometown and is charming considerate and passionate about every thing he does. We hung out until 5:30 am---- clearly blocking all my pimp game for the rest of the night. The following day we had our first real date...and kiss. And it was good. Like -throw your hands up and scream "score!"- good. (I know you were thinking "5:30 am? No sex...?" Nope and he never pushes me, ever.)
This is a man that opens every door. Never walks ahead of me and places his hand on the small of my back. It's not an act but genuinely a part of him. It felt so good to be near him and hold him all week but all so abruptly he issued the disclaimer-he was not ready for a relationship. What? It wasn't like I asked for that, but I guess Atlanta guys fear a woman is always plotting to lock them down. Good thing I didn't sleep with him. Off to LA.

But I couldn't stop thinking of him. So when he called weeks later and ultimately came down...it was a wrap. He is the truth. In side of him is the spirit of my husband, walking and breathing. From the way he loves his mother and truly looks up to his father (he's an only child so I guess you would adore your parents...or totally hate them) to the way he isn't just a dreamer. No matter how hard, he makes those dreams real.

I love the way he talks to me, the sound of his voice, the way he touches me, the way he kisses me. My drought? He was worth the wait. I love the way he kisses my collar bone when we make love, how comfortable I am and how I find myself always wanting to give him more. I am a little better of a woman because of him. How am I supposed to let go?

I can't remember feeling like this. I think I love him. Gasp! There, I said it and with that said, I must get off this love boat. Yep, nothing lasts forever and all cruises come to an end. It's not the size of the ship but the motion of the ocean in order for smooth sailing …and he was a reeeaaaally nice ship. But hey, you either walk off or be thrown off...and he ain't about to get a black woman's hair wet.




Big ups to Diva whose post obviously had me stuck on the ocean.
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17 comments:

  1. wow...what a fantastic memory!

    LOL @ my big ups..loves it!

    Girl your writing set this off so vividly..man. I am over here reminiscing now..dammit !

    thanks for your comments on my blog, I have read it at least 6 times, now..simply wonderful.

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  2. small disclaimer...I didn't intend for my hyperlink to imply that "horrible caramel spill" had anything to do with yer blog. Just thought it was a nice (and ap-ro-po) spot for a plug.

    yers,
    -Tsunami-

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  3. Hey Girl,

    Thanks for stopping by my site and for giving me a shout out here. That cheered me up for real. Something just happened in this crazy so called life of mine and it is about to send me over the edge, or at least me to write the most vengeance filled post I have ecer written so it was nice to see your kind words before I have to go off on this "man" (I use the term very loosely) in my life. MEN are the worst. YUCK!!

    Anyway, I am glad that you at least had the opportunity to spend time with someone that was breathtaking. It just made you tingle all over right? MMMMMMMPH!! LOL!! Good for you girl. I hope you can find a way to continue what you've started. Keep us posted girl.

    DIVA

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  4. For all of us who've been there, we can truly say the fact that you know a ride will end does not affect how much you will emjoy the ride. May your heart always enjoy the rides that your body takes you on....P.S. Thanks for the advice..so young yet so wise.

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  5. All good things must come to an end, hey? I can't keep up with the men so I have no idea who you're talking about!!! Too many on the Chi chi train. Just kidding. It sounds like he was a good one. WHAT HAPPENED? Perhaps we need to speak more often so you can keep me up to date!!!

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  7. Anonymous2:35 PM

    uhm okay, I stayed home today to calm the wrath of my belly and decided to catch up to your blog and I came across this. Am I that detached from you, does it appears that you are professing your love for someone on the national airwaves. And it has been uhm (did you say leaving NO) so months and this persons has not showed his ass. Hold on one moment and does this means that you're going to start writing mushing blogs. You know i'm always happy when you're happy but we have to talk. H

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