Sunday, June 05, 2005

Today


Today I lifted the comforter from over my head in my newly sublet apartment I thought to myself, "hmmph, I am finally on to something". Last week I lived in the 'burbs with no cable to day I am in the lap of luxury. What a difference today makes. Recently, my days seemed to all run together, simply a collection of moments and minutes. Hours identical in the determination to be productive. Everyday just hustling between the setting and rising of the sun. That was yesterday... But today I woke up singing
From the moment I wake up
Before I put on my make up

And then I tripped on the side of the bed trying to get to the TV in order to watch as much of the Today show as I could. I think I liked Al Roker better fat, someone should tell him.
I say a little prayer for you...


Today in lue of going to work I had the most profound moment, I crossed a brown and beige colored pigeon amongst a gang of other grey-black colored nasties. Weird. "What exactly is a pigeon's natural habitat?" Strolling towards my downtown building, I was accompanied on each side by two pigeons, cooing. It was as if we were talking but I was the only one that didn't get the joke. As I attemped to crossover to my building we couldn't figure out who was going first, myself or the pigeon on the right. Today I apologized to a pigeon because I obviously was in the pigeon's space.

Today I found that I don't like Joss Stone. I was convinced I liked her music a lot but really... don't think I can quite stand her. Today I actually watched her video on mute ...and a few others. I realized that today's music videos make me nauseous, that I perhaps am getting old and decided to watch Oprah. After seeing celebrites x and y talk about A and B, Oprah anounced yet another book for her beloved book club that I read already in high school. No matter how sexy I am today (and we do remember that I am sexy right?) deep down I will always be a nerd. The city in which I live looks nothing at all like the one in the picture. I am one of the few southerners who no longer has the desire to move up north. Big trucks, cheaper gas, pimped out Toyotas, parking spaces...and really do you see any grass in that picture? Am I really to live without grass? Today I know that a great deal is over-rated and most of the little things matter the most to me.
I woke up today and wiped the metaphoric crust from my eyes. How much better are we than the pigeons on the street? The insecurities I have others have as well, they just hide them. Most of those who constantly swear to "keep it real" are fake. Today I can see right through them. And a little fake is okay, I mean my hair is fake. But at least it is not my personality. The most important thing is to be real with yourself, really. Today being true to yourself is hard and the first step to doing so is admiting that you aren't. And "Live your life for today!" is the only biggest load of impossible crap. The reasons people didn't jump off bridges, divorce their spouses, quit their jobs today is because of the thoughts of glorious of yesterdays and in hopeful anticipation of a better tomorrow... and its okay. I think life is just one long day. Today is your lucky day! When you finally close your eyes at nightfall how will you say you spent your time?


Been gone for a minute but Today Sin City is back...(thanks for the nickname Rican)
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10 comments:

  1. this means that you are still alive! so um I won't try to decipher the photo post..just coming through to check and smiling as usual!

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  2. I was still in construction mode Diva. I've been stuck in a blogspot for some time. he he...

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  3. Anonymous2:11 PM

    Bout time up updated your site you were slipping but today is as good as any day.

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  4. I can't stand Joss Stone either. I think it is all an act...she really listens to Poison and can constantly be found at metal shows banging her head on the stage. I am so over her!

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  5. I like your style caramel. Your blogs read like a walk through a park or down the street and around the corner. I am ading you to my link list... and yuh can't stop me!

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  6. Anonymous1:56 AM

    gosh dern time you put up a new post!

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  7. Brokkenhearted8:58 AM

    What to do with a person who opens my eyes and my heart to the world? Read her blog, that's what! Sadly, we never live for today. We live in fear. just fear. if yesterday was good we spend today fearing that tomorrow will be bad. If yesterday was bad, we spend today fearing that everyday will be just as bad. It is hard to take the time to appreciate the present. Presently I am in my Psychology of Women class. The present makes me sleepy.

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  8. Sin- City, you're back!!!!!

    (You know, chick, we GOTTA get drunk sometime. But AFTER Summer II, please.)
    LMFAO @ the "fakeness"...Yeah I think everyone has a degree of fakeness-Its the need to "belong" and "fit in". A little Aretha Franklin is all a girl needs to get her started in the morn, I tell ya.

    Rican

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  9. Girl, you sho tickled me with the stroll you and the pigeons had while they left you out of the loop.

    How you gon' talk about somebody taking some time away? Umph.

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